Monday 18 March 2013

dropped the ball on that one!!

Well here we are...2 days after I turned 30 and my last blog post was in January. Sorry folks...I'm not perfect. (but pssssst...neither are you ;-)   )

So yes here we are, I'm 30 now. THIRTY. I think when I was about 10 or so , I thought 30 was SOOOOO OLD. People who were 30 were ancient in my mind and I'd never be one of those 30 somethings..like..ever.

Well, here I am- I'm one of those 30 somethings and you know what? It feels pretty great. I've accomplished a lot in my 30 years and I'm proud of every one of those accomplishments.

This song sort of sums it up : my next 30 years

Anyway- here I am at 30 and I realized something. All the things I used to think I knew so well, I really didn't. Everything is a learning experience, every friend I make , every friend I walk away from - or who walks away from me, every little tiny thing that I used to take for granted- everything MATTERS in the grande scheme of my life. What is the most important thing to remember? That all of the little things, whether positive or negative, it's about how they make me feel and how I respond to them. What I learn from them, how I move forward.
Sitting among my friends on my birthday I got a big smile. I realized why the world is so small. You know how you meet people and realize that somehow, somewhere you've connected before? Well lately I'm realizing my world keeps getting smaller and smaller. New people I meet- somehow they're friends with my pre-existing friends. I think that speaks wonders about my people reading skills and personality. I like good people. When good people already know and like each other..it just makes sense for us all to be friends. I say this because two of my newer friends, showed up to my party and knew my pre-existing friend and her husband. Her husband also looked at my husband and said " hey, we had class together in University! " . I love that. I love how our world turns and continues to surprise me.

Nothing has to be perfect. Of course we can dream of perfection, and strive for perfection- but really...perfection isn't what defines who we are. It's not how we measure success, it's not how we measure love. People aren't perfect, and nobody should expect them to be. Over the last year I've learned to embrace, me. I've learned to accept everything about me that I might have been self conscious about, all the little quirks and little things that make me who I am.

                                               this is what 30 looks like. {...after only one coffee..}